Grown Men Don't Cry..... Bull Crap !!!

so i had a very hard day at work that crept getting worse by the second!! and just nothing was going right. soo finally i got to pack up at the end of the day. and there was the light, my boss came in and made is soo much better. you see my boss is also the stake young mens pres. and they had youth conference this past week and on his ipod he had recorded over seven hundred youth singing "sons of Helaman" and "as daughters of Zion" and after such a hard day and with such a spiritual thing i cried standing there listening to it i cried. so it made me think why do they say "grown men don't cry". is it true that if you cry that you are not a grown man. NO !!!! it means you have velvet rapped up in a steel shell! some times it is okay for men to cry and to be held by those who you care about and who care about you. it is not a weakness more of a strength that no matter what happens you still are human and need comfort. sure as we grow up it is all part of the plan that molds and shapes everyone. it is true the saying "life is hard then you die" truely life is hard and it only gets hard whether it is a bully pushing you down on the playground or your wife after 75 years of marriage dies. LIFE is hard and it only gets harder, but there are ways to make it easier. like in the deserts occasionally you will find an oases to get you out of the sand in into the cool blue waters of a spring. and this oases can be anything from being on the top of a horse in the middle of the mountains to being held close by your mother as she rocks you back and forth telling you she loves you. Grown Men Do Cry, and i will be the first to stand up to anyone that says they don't. and tell them they are cold and heartless. because what is crying it is a form of expression from the heart. it is a plead by our very soles pleading to be heard by those around you whether it is happy or sad it is expressing itself though our tears. and i am proud to say that i cry sometimes whether is because a movie or im just having a bad day and need to let off steam. and i am happy to be alive and am able to show such an expression so i hope all of you have a good day and remember that it is ok to cry just make sure something good comes from it :)

Dirt, Rock, Water, Car and Fish

soooo ya i know i have not posted anything in a LONG TIME but here we go !!!!!. so my story begins about a 2 weeks ago

Water , so the reason water is in here is for about 2 weeks ago kit and i went fishing it was really fun and i had a blast now the funny thing was about half the way though kit slipped on a rock and totally fell in the water now this was no fall on the but and its over with no it was like total back and all he fell in haha it was freakin funny!!!! but on the bad side he totaly clobberd his tow and ripped his skin off of it and he also brewsed his shins. but i laphed my butt off at him :)

Car, so as my family knows my older sister is in oklahome and i was sooooo freakin excited to go but i was hit by a curve ball and was not able to go. the reason my car broke down and i need to sell it so i was going to but i had to do it befor she left. but in the long run still not sold and i am at home with kit so its not that bad :)

Dirt and Rock, so this last weekend kit and i went up to atlanta to visit my aunt and uncle and some frindsl of the family. it was A BLAST !!!!!!!!!!!!!! we stayed up later at my aunt and uncles till like at 2 in the mornin just talking :). then the next night we went to the Hendersons THIS FAMILY ROCKS they have like 7 boys that are all in to stuff im in they ride motorcycles dirt bikes and all that !!!!! and one of the boys and i totally hit it off kc rocks totally frinds now haha but this is where rock and dirt come in to play. so on the 4th of july kit and some of the guys and i went out dirt biking on their land was soooooo fun !!!!!. we had a blast.!!!! so i got on my bike first and ive been on one befor so it was not all that bad, but this was the first time for kit and oh you could tell haha. so they had a circle drive so he was going in first gear around this drive then he went down the dirt drive way and decided to get to second gear. bad idea haha. so as most of you know second gear makes you go faster and kit was kinda like wow this is faster so i should slow down so he pulls in the clutch and it slows down well as he grabbs the hand brake he reves the engin and he freaks out lets go of both the clutch and the brake so the bike lerches forword and insted of grabbin the clutch he graps only the front brake and he flys off the front of the bike hahahaha.. ya i had an isident as well haha so i was going and i was starting so i had it reved up and i let go of the clutch and the bike dose a weely and thoghs me off the back and keeps going it scared the crap out of me haha.

now for Fish. so kit and i went to a friends hows to go to a fish fry. it was once agin a totall blast!!! the fish was way good they were way cool people. so we stayed there talking till 2 in the mornin!!!!!!!! im at work and i sooo freakin tired haha but it is sooo worth it :) but it was way fun and i cant wait to see what other fun things kit and i do wile lib is gone :) i hope some time we can pick up kits boat !!!! :) but ya just an update on what is up for right now haha:)

adding to it

in my last post i failed to post that a mission was in my plans well actually i did not fail to it was the space of a time that is my mission ok just to clarify im doing every thing in my power to go on a mission :)

Life, Plans, and Whats in the Future , OH and i loved the last day of 2008

well to start out i had a blast with my sister in Alabama absolutely Loved it!!!!! well i got a bunch of horse thing which i wanted and a cologne from AE which i love :) well this is about my plans for the near future, it all started the on new years eve at about 10:00, ( side note i was lookin for a job because my boss was not givin me enough hours ) so my father was talking to me about jobs and was sayin i need to get one well when i was in Alabama my brother turned in an application to the Scout Base in Key Largo in Florida, and it was pretty late so i for got about it. well i was talkin to my father and got done and i did not wash my hair yet so i went up stares to do so. well i was half he was done and my phone rings and i dont know the number so i pick it up. and on the other side of the phone is a recruiter for the base. so he said is this mack holyoak, and i was like ya, so it gose out he askes me if i was interested in a job and i was so aw stuck i stammered out a yes and he continued. so what happened he got my app the day before and had not looked at it yet and to my luck the day before that a guy dropped out of the position i was wanting and he called me up. he had not even looked at my app yet besides my name and number so he was askin questions then answering then him self as he looked at it with me on the phone lol. so i excepted and he told me to report at the base on the 10 of March. it was amazing. well to continue with the amazing day i was having lol about an hour after that another person called for a job appointment for Monday so i got two jobs in one day so ill keep this job till i have to go to the base oh by the way the job is a jewelry store lol so i get to show off my good looks to the happy people that come into the store lol. so my plans :) what i am going to do is save up and rent a truck but i will also buy a moped/scooter, (to drive from church to the base and so on) so thats what going to happen with the mobile situation and speaking of Mobile lol yes lib and kit if it is ok with you i will spend some time there with you and the boys lol then i will go to florida and have the most Amazing 5 months of my life :) then when im done ill go back home. then after a time lol i will join the Coast Guard and ill stay in for at least 4 years so after that they will pay for all of my schooling or ill just stay in it :) so in a nut shell that is what i plan to do :) so i need to find swim suits lol and towels lol lot and lots of them lol

Roping its just what i do lol

roping is one of my Passions i love it, it makes me happy and just when i get the adrenalin running there is nothing like it its just like hunting and any other thing that gets those muscles working lol so i don't really have that many photos of my roping just because it is just my thing none of my family really ever comes to watch me i would like them to but i know they are busy so i understand

i just love it lol

i officially love the ocean and everything about it it is really cool i just like it :)

Scuba Trip to the Keys !!!

so this is me scuba diving

this i s a queen parrot fish
me and the crew
me talking to my dive master

alright these pic are me and my friends sleeping in an air port terminal are flight was late so we did not get to Florida in time to get a car so we were stuck in the airport all night it was fun but i think that is the last time i want to do that im the one on the right
this is the skit at the end of the trip long story im the captain and he is our leader hanging on the boat and he is in the water it was funny lol
this is the last day of diving the water is soooooo still it looks like glass it was amazing


these are on the night dive we are on the boat going to the reef the view was amazing and the sunset was soooo pretty
me walking on the beach in key west the closest point to cuba that you can be on the US




pics of sharks
moon jellys
barracuda
southern sting ray
another barracuda

cool fish
another southern sting ray in the sand
same ray same sand lol
cool fish